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Has it been forever? Feels like it. Been tired last few days. Graduated! Had a nice celebration! Found out who my support system truly is. Had a headache for about four days. Anxiously awaiting till the end of the school year. Almost over, yippeee! Just finished Twilight...bravo! I can't wait until New Moon appears in theaters. I love this series! The sexiness and love without lovemaking is incredible! Almost finished with the book and about to start on the next book. Signed my contract this week with DCS. Tired, time to go to bed now and dream about Edward...oooo la la : ) LOL!

Nite, Nite

Danica

God's Love

Today was a good day despite I sneezed over 1,000,000 times. Mama said "Gurl you gonna bust somethin!" LOL...I decided to cook some power foods tonight for dinner, greens and baked sweet potato. I just started eating baked sweet potatoes, I never liked them growing up, thank goodness Mama didn't make me eat them like she did cabbage (which I like now). I guess that taste buds mature with age.
I didn't get to read any of my book tonight and it made me feel like I was missing a daily task. I'm not reading at the speed I normally read a good book and it's frustrating! I feel so clumped out after I leave the school building. Have I been to the gym yet? Don't try and guess, I'll tell without hesitation nope! I set my alarm but somehow I keep pressing the snooze button don't really know how that happens; hadn't figured out how to just pop out of bed yet, it's quite a difficult task for someone who's not a morning person at all. Maybe I'll try to bypass the snooze button in the morning.

How is it said? Something like "If God is for you, who can be against you?" I had a family member call tonight and inform me that they couldn't make it to the "celebration" and the sad part about it is, I didn't expect for family outside of Tennessee and Mississippi to show. I remember growing up and attending everything they had, graduations, showers, etc. and I remember my sister and I having events and they hardly showed. It makes me wonder sometimes who's truth and who's fabrication, even with family. I've always had trust issues and issues with others' motives and motivation. I am thankful though for family and friends that are supportive and don't have unjust motives. As they say if you have one true friend then you are doing well.
Although I don't consider myself religious, I am very spiritual and I am striving to get to know God more and develop a more personal relationship with Him. And so where I am going with all of this is, sometimes even people we love the most have to be just let alone. I have learned - and it took me a long time and a lot of hurtful experiences to learn to "Let go and let God". I sure do sleep better at night knowing that He's in control and that He takes care of all of His children. My grandmother used to tell us all of the time, "Much prayer, much power; little prayer, little power; no prayer, no power". I know that I wasn't exactly clear tonight and that is because I had so many thoughts running through my head and so I wrote what came first and since I wrote, it's all clearer to me now and this is what I am aiming to accomplish through blogging, to make thoughts more clearer.

Goodnight,

Danica

"It's gettin, it's gettin, it's gettin kinda hectic"

This week has been somewhat busy. I've been trying to give attention to the last minute details of the celebration. It's been a challenge putting together but worthwhile and fun. I just hope all turns out okay. This week has also been a sad one with the critical illness of a co-worker and the loss of a fellow educator. The loss of the fellow educator (although I didn't know her) has really made me appreciate my career. This young lady was so magnificant at her profession and was loved and admired by many. She had four girls and a husband that she was taking care of and many students who she cherished and only wanted the best for. Last year she was runner up as Mississippi Teacher of the Year. By what I'm hearing she was an amazing person. I started to think of course of my time at SES and how much work there is still to be done and the wonderful people that I have developed friendships with. The tricky part is going to be talking with my principal. I was so adamant about leaving and finding a new position and I hoped I haven't ruined my chances of possibly remaining at SES for a little while longer. Anyway. I know one thing for sure, these weekends are going by way too fast! Little time to do much of anything! Well I may be back later and perhaps not.

Danica

Just Another Day

Today was just another day in the neighborhood without the jolly Mr. Rogers. I didn't have much energy and wasn't in the best of moods today after what happened last night. And even after responding through an email which hadn't been read, I still don't feel any better; guess it's gonna be a crappy week for me huh? Well the other party did aplogize and I accepted but I just didn't have much to say and still don't. It just bothers me to get cut down like that on a frequent basis as if my word ain't good enough. It's just so frustrating! And anyway don't know what their response will be after the heated email that they haven't read. They may not want to talk to me either so I guess that'll be the end of that...who knows. At any rate I have an exam this week and the week is absolutely going by slow. Not trying to rush time! Not at all! Well I guess I'll read a little and call it a night.

Until later,

Danica

Before I Officially Sign Off For the Night...

This is where I wouldn't mind being at the moment - downtown Chicago at a nice jazz joint listening to some soothing sounds and tasting some red wine. I took this picture when I visited last summer and worked on it a little...

Okay now officially

Goodnight,

Danica

Sometimes I wonder...
when you give your all and the most that you have to those who you love most...
I wonder...
do they really care
when you put in so much time and think you finally got it right
I wonder...
was it something I said
trying to help and give input before it's too late...
I wonder...
did I spoil your day
Sometimes I wonder...
is it worth the heartstrings being pulled from one end to another...
will it get better or remain the same
why buy the cow when you can get the milk for free
why care how you treat me...
Sometimes I wonder....
maybe I think too much

Well today was a pretty good day not much to tell...at this exact moment I'm thinking- can't wait to move out of this apartment! Why must the upstairs people STUMP STUMP THUMP THUMP THUMP across the floor!!!! Ugh!!! They are soooo loud the neighbors' dogs next door are barking! That's loud! Anyway not much happened today. I passed out invites to friends at work and talked to a friend who said she may get me some of that Grey Goose! Yay! I need it now. What's up with the thought above? Well can't really go into it just had a moment with a "friend" and I was frustrated so instead of crying I wrote. Anyway hadn't made it back to the gym...the weekend went by so fast! Couldn't keep up with the time. Wish I had been more productive, although I don't know exactly would that would have entailed. Feels like it's gonna be a slow week, not looking forward to it. All in about 5 minutes I had the little energy I had drained from me in that conversation with the "friend". So now I think that I will just go to bed although I probably won't fall asleep right away. I think that I will listen to some music and drift away or sing to my hearts content. Either way I now feel bluish and I hate feeling bluish because it's hard for me to feel reddish again (red is my favorite color ; ) Well hopefully I can sleep it off and hey maybe I'll be motivated to get up early enough to go to the gym!

Goodnight,

Danica

Yesterday I laughed so hard I cried! And not just one time but several times! I love working with "the crew" they are hilarious and good people. I suppose this is why I'm having a difficult time making a decision on applying to other school systems. Yes I get frustrated and feel like I'm losing my passion for teaching but I love the people that I work with( "the crew") and my principal is supportive and hasn't forgotten what it's like to be in the classroom. I'm know that I'll never find another place like it. The children are likable too it's just that they need so much and have so many difficulties. I don't know! Anyway I'll pray constantly and hope that my ears are wide open enough to hear the word from God. Otherwise got a note from the apartment community that they've upgraded our fitness room...Yay! I think I'll go over today and check it out. No excueses right! Now I can exercise here in the mornings and at Olympic in the evenings. That's a good idea huh? I hope I can follow through. Today has been a peaceful day so far...hope it stays that way. Until later...

Danica

Today was a good day

Today was a pleasant day. I went on my first school field trip at my current placement. Went to a Red Bird's game. Luckily for me there wasn't a large crowd because I have a fear of large crowds: enochlophobia. Anyhow everything went well and it was a relaxing afternoon. I had to come home and get me a nice cold drink because by the time we left it was quite humid. Needless to say I didn't go to the gym again tonight and I didn't wake my lazy butt up early enough this morning to go walking. I don't know what it's gonna take for me to get started and stay started! I keep thinking in the back of my head that I certainly don't want diabetes because I know the effect that it has on a person's life. I don't have the energy I feel like it takes although I love working out and I love the benefits of the after effect. Anyway I think that I'll be in bed a little earlier tonight seeing that I didn't fall asleep until like 2 in the morning! Well that's all that happened today. It was a good day...thank the Lord!

Well today was a good day on the job. Laughed a lot at work as usual. I know I didn't post last evening... and I thought I would be consistent! Huh! I'm gonna do better and get better at this blogging thing. I went to the gym last night and had energy this morning. I didn't make it tonight, working on invitations for my graduation celebration. Yes I am sending out invites...I know that it may sound pathetic to host my own graduation celebration but if I don't who will? Who cares?! Anyway it's something that I'm gonna try and hope and pray that people show up cause that would be just embarrassing to no end! I'm gonna try and walk in the morning to make up for tonight depending on what time I hit the sac cause I have to do something to my hair! Get to go to the Red Birds' game tomorrow (field trip)! It's my first baseball game ever and I'm soooooo excited and plus my buddy Katy will be there! So I got a lot of exciting things going on at the moment and so life is good. I have a lot on my mind but I'll leave those thoughts for other posts and maybe I'll forget them....hmmmm....okay yeah right! My mind swirls like a spinning top. Well goodnite for now until tomorrow

Danica

Something New

Today I decided to start my blogging experience. It's something totally new for me. In the past I've tried to keep a journal but consistency and I don't get along. One of the main reasons that I've decided to start blogging is to keep up with myself - my feelings and emotions. I'm feeling a wee bit frazzled and behind my peers these days and some days I just need to vent. Writing is something that I do just not to help myself. I went to the gym today after putting it off for months. Now that my class is almost over and graduation is just around the corner I can start focusing on ME. I've neglected myself over the years and have come to the conclusion that I'm lost. I though I knew who I was - but some days I just don't know. Anyway, I'm going to set aside a time to blog each night before bed and reflect on the day. I hope that this helps in my resurrection. I am willing to give it a try and so we will see...until tomorrow.

Danica