Sometimes I wonder...
when you give your all and the most that you have to those who you love most...
I wonder...
do they really care
when you put in so much time and think you finally got it right
I wonder...
was it something I said
trying to help and give input before it's too late...
I wonder...
did I spoil your day
Sometimes I wonder...
is it worth the heartstrings being pulled from one end to another...
will it get better or remain the same
why buy the cow when you can get the milk for free
why care how you treat me...
Sometimes I wonder....
maybe I think too much

Well today was a pretty good day not much to tell...at this exact moment I'm thinking- can't wait to move out of this apartment! Why must the upstairs people STUMP STUMP THUMP THUMP THUMP across the floor!!!! Ugh!!! They are soooo loud the neighbors' dogs next door are barking! That's loud! Anyway not much happened today. I passed out invites to friends at work and talked to a friend who said she may get me some of that Grey Goose! Yay! I need it now. What's up with the thought above? Well can't really go into it just had a moment with a "friend" and I was frustrated so instead of crying I wrote. Anyway hadn't made it back to the gym...the weekend went by so fast! Couldn't keep up with the time. Wish I had been more productive, although I don't know exactly would that would have entailed. Feels like it's gonna be a slow week, not looking forward to it. All in about 5 minutes I had the little energy I had drained from me in that conversation with the "friend". So now I think that I will just go to bed although I probably won't fall asleep right away. I think that I will listen to some music and drift away or sing to my hearts content. Either way I now feel bluish and I hate feeling bluish because it's hard for me to feel reddish again (red is my favorite color ; ) Well hopefully I can sleep it off and hey maybe I'll be motivated to get up early enough to go to the gym!

Goodnight,

Danica