Tuesday, May 5, 2009

God's Love

Today was a good day despite I sneezed over 1,000,000 times. Mama said "Gurl you gonna bust somethin!" LOL...I decided to cook some power foods tonight for dinner, greens and baked sweet potato. I just started eating baked sweet potatoes, I never liked them growing up, thank goodness Mama didn't make me eat them like she did cabbage (which I like now). I guess that taste buds mature with age.
I didn't get to read any of my book tonight and it made me feel like I was missing a daily task. I'm not reading at the speed I normally read a good book and it's frustrating! I feel so clumped out after I leave the school building. Have I been to the gym yet? Don't try and guess, I'll tell without hesitation nope! I set my alarm but somehow I keep pressing the snooze button don't really know how that happens; hadn't figured out how to just pop out of bed yet, it's quite a difficult task for someone who's not a morning person at all. Maybe I'll try to bypass the snooze button in the morning.

How is it said? Something like "If God is for you, who can be against you?" I had a family member call tonight and inform me that they couldn't make it to the "celebration" and the sad part about it is, I didn't expect for family outside of Tennessee and Mississippi to show. I remember growing up and attending everything they had, graduations, showers, etc. and I remember my sister and I having events and they hardly showed. It makes me wonder sometimes who's truth and who's fabrication, even with family. I've always had trust issues and issues with others' motives and motivation. I am thankful though for family and friends that are supportive and don't have unjust motives. As they say if you have one true friend then you are doing well.
Although I don't consider myself religious, I am very spiritual and I am striving to get to know God more and develop a more personal relationship with Him. And so where I am going with all of this is, sometimes even people we love the most have to be just let alone. I have learned - and it took me a long time and a lot of hurtful experiences to learn to "Let go and let God". I sure do sleep better at night knowing that He's in control and that He takes care of all of His children. My grandmother used to tell us all of the time, "Much prayer, much power; little prayer, little power; no prayer, no power". I know that I wasn't exactly clear tonight and that is because I had so many thoughts running through my head and so I wrote what came first and since I wrote, it's all clearer to me now and this is what I am aiming to accomplish through blogging, to make thoughts more clearer.

Goodnight,

Danica

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