Just Another Day

Today was just another day in the neighborhood without the jolly Mr. Rogers. I didn't have much energy and wasn't in the best of moods today after what happened last night. And even after responding through an email which hadn't been read, I still don't feel any better; guess it's gonna be a crappy week for me huh? Well the other party did aplogize and I accepted but I just didn't have much to say and still don't. It just bothers me to get cut down like that on a frequent basis as if my word ain't good enough. It's just so frustrating! And anyway don't know what their response will be after the heated email that they haven't read. They may not want to talk to me either so I guess that'll be the end of that...who knows. At any rate I have an exam this week and the week is absolutely going by slow. Not trying to rush time! Not at all! Well I guess I'll read a little and call it a night.

Until later,

Danica

Before I Officially Sign Off For the Night...

This is where I wouldn't mind being at the moment - downtown Chicago at a nice jazz joint listening to some soothing sounds and tasting some red wine. I took this picture when I visited last summer and worked on it a little...

Okay now officially

Goodnight,

Danica

Sometimes I wonder...
when you give your all and the most that you have to those who you love most...
I wonder...
do they really care
when you put in so much time and think you finally got it right
I wonder...
was it something I said
trying to help and give input before it's too late...
I wonder...
did I spoil your day
Sometimes I wonder...
is it worth the heartstrings being pulled from one end to another...
will it get better or remain the same
why buy the cow when you can get the milk for free
why care how you treat me...
Sometimes I wonder....
maybe I think too much

Well today was a pretty good day not much to tell...at this exact moment I'm thinking- can't wait to move out of this apartment! Why must the upstairs people STUMP STUMP THUMP THUMP THUMP across the floor!!!! Ugh!!! They are soooo loud the neighbors' dogs next door are barking! That's loud! Anyway not much happened today. I passed out invites to friends at work and talked to a friend who said she may get me some of that Grey Goose! Yay! I need it now. What's up with the thought above? Well can't really go into it just had a moment with a "friend" and I was frustrated so instead of crying I wrote. Anyway hadn't made it back to the gym...the weekend went by so fast! Couldn't keep up with the time. Wish I had been more productive, although I don't know exactly would that would have entailed. Feels like it's gonna be a slow week, not looking forward to it. All in about 5 minutes I had the little energy I had drained from me in that conversation with the "friend". So now I think that I will just go to bed although I probably won't fall asleep right away. I think that I will listen to some music and drift away or sing to my hearts content. Either way I now feel bluish and I hate feeling bluish because it's hard for me to feel reddish again (red is my favorite color ; ) Well hopefully I can sleep it off and hey maybe I'll be motivated to get up early enough to go to the gym!

Goodnight,

Danica

Yesterday I laughed so hard I cried! And not just one time but several times! I love working with "the crew" they are hilarious and good people. I suppose this is why I'm having a difficult time making a decision on applying to other school systems. Yes I get frustrated and feel like I'm losing my passion for teaching but I love the people that I work with( "the crew") and my principal is supportive and hasn't forgotten what it's like to be in the classroom. I'm know that I'll never find another place like it. The children are likable too it's just that they need so much and have so many difficulties. I don't know! Anyway I'll pray constantly and hope that my ears are wide open enough to hear the word from God. Otherwise got a note from the apartment community that they've upgraded our fitness room...Yay! I think I'll go over today and check it out. No excueses right! Now I can exercise here in the mornings and at Olympic in the evenings. That's a good idea huh? I hope I can follow through. Today has been a peaceful day so far...hope it stays that way. Until later...

Danica

Today was a good day

Today was a pleasant day. I went on my first school field trip at my current placement. Went to a Red Bird's game. Luckily for me there wasn't a large crowd because I have a fear of large crowds: enochlophobia. Anyhow everything went well and it was a relaxing afternoon. I had to come home and get me a nice cold drink because by the time we left it was quite humid. Needless to say I didn't go to the gym again tonight and I didn't wake my lazy butt up early enough this morning to go walking. I don't know what it's gonna take for me to get started and stay started! I keep thinking in the back of my head that I certainly don't want diabetes because I know the effect that it has on a person's life. I don't have the energy I feel like it takes although I love working out and I love the benefits of the after effect. Anyway I think that I'll be in bed a little earlier tonight seeing that I didn't fall asleep until like 2 in the morning! Well that's all that happened today. It was a good day...thank the Lord!

Well today was a good day on the job. Laughed a lot at work as usual. I know I didn't post last evening... and I thought I would be consistent! Huh! I'm gonna do better and get better at this blogging thing. I went to the gym last night and had energy this morning. I didn't make it tonight, working on invitations for my graduation celebration. Yes I am sending out invites...I know that it may sound pathetic to host my own graduation celebration but if I don't who will? Who cares?! Anyway it's something that I'm gonna try and hope and pray that people show up cause that would be just embarrassing to no end! I'm gonna try and walk in the morning to make up for tonight depending on what time I hit the sac cause I have to do something to my hair! Get to go to the Red Birds' game tomorrow (field trip)! It's my first baseball game ever and I'm soooooo excited and plus my buddy Katy will be there! So I got a lot of exciting things going on at the moment and so life is good. I have a lot on my mind but I'll leave those thoughts for other posts and maybe I'll forget them....hmmmm....okay yeah right! My mind swirls like a spinning top. Well goodnite for now until tomorrow

Danica

Something New

Today I decided to start my blogging experience. It's something totally new for me. In the past I've tried to keep a journal but consistency and I don't get along. One of the main reasons that I've decided to start blogging is to keep up with myself - my feelings and emotions. I'm feeling a wee bit frazzled and behind my peers these days and some days I just need to vent. Writing is something that I do just not to help myself. I went to the gym today after putting it off for months. Now that my class is almost over and graduation is just around the corner I can start focusing on ME. I've neglected myself over the years and have come to the conclusion that I'm lost. I though I knew who I was - but some days I just don't know. Anyway, I'm going to set aside a time to blog each night before bed and reflect on the day. I hope that this helps in my resurrection. I am willing to give it a try and so we will see...until tomorrow.

Danica